The amount of passion and enthusiasm I managed to pour out in my Nier rant on the podcast is *unprecedented.*

Actually, not really. I’ve probably done that before.

I’m doing a couple reviews on here in the next week or so, and I’m toying with the idea of bringing back the stars! And by “toying with,” I mean “I will more than likely use them a lot.”

Atelier Rorona currently holds a Sept 28 release, and I have the final version in my hands already. That’s my next podcast fodder. That and a game called SHANK which I intend to review here soon.

Yeah, it’s our “fail blog” so we get to lock it down. I’m getting the last word in my own space. Go bitch about me on the botdls or something.

Some quick thoughts:

1) Peteybird again makes a point which pretty much every BotD member missed. I agreed with the decision that BotD was no longer the right fit for me, and it probably wasn’t for a long time. Not a social LS, I wasn’t at the events. I got it. That’s fine. I agree with the decision. The issue at hand is HOW people handle things, how people act, the way they talk. It’s all bullshit.

2) To “Confused BotD Member” — once upon a time, I was an extremely active member of BotD. During that time I only had one child and a job that afforded me a LOT of flexible hours. I could name dozens of close BotD friends, though I suspect many of them are now either inactive or have fully left BotD. The situation in my life now is such that I can only afford enough time to keep up on the current content, which brings me to what is probably the most important point…

3) “As a family, we strive for excellence in the areas of Sky, Sea, Cop missions, Zilart missions and any other missions coming from the Final Fantasy Database.” — Hey “Truth-Hammer,” good point! Now, the LS members of current have done a pretty fine job of keeping people up on their WotG missions haven’t they? /sarcasm. Most people haven’t even finished ToAU from what I can tell. It seems to me that rather than calling me selfish, you can just call yourselves slow. I’d be like “hey, who in the LS wants to do ____ WotG mission?” And everyone’s like “uh… we’re 8 missions behind.” Oh, cool. More than once in the last few months did I go and help some LS mates who needed those older missions. Outside of Draylo, those other people I’m pretty sure still haven’t caught up. So if doing Sky/Sea runs 1000 times over is more worthwhile than keeping up with the standard missions, then I guess I am selfish.

4) People didn’t like that I “spammed” the LS? I’d actually be spamming shouts in WG, and maybe once an hour I’d say in the LS “hey, just gonna repeat a WG shout in case anyone’s interested.” Rarely did anyone come, and that’s fine. I just thought people would be interested in these missions. The nature of missions/quests that REQUIRE groups is that it’s not fully selfish but everyone gets something out of it. So…… yeah. I clearly wasn’t fit for BotD in the last 18 months or so. Thanks for kicking me, seriously, it was a good and right thing to do. Sorry for not coming to ZNMs and Sky events, I have to prioritize what I do in the game at this point. But there were nicer ways to kick me than what I experienced, and Anto didn’t have to snub me with his non-responses.

5) Neph — I actually had no idea Deaura/Rubedoe was interacting with ANYONE on the LS during the time he was using my character. I’m actually a little disappointed to hear that. I was just doing the dude a favor. Maybe that’s why people were colder to me than I expected when I came out of a lengthy hiatus. They thought I was him.

Alright, that’s about it. Can’t wait to see y’all in game. I’d love to know who the person was who put this link up on the BotD forums (I haven’t even been over to check it out), but I guess someone is pretty interested in googling their own Avatar name to have found this. That gives me a good chuckle.

The evidence is out there from every imaginable perspective, and I think anybody paying any attention can see on which side the dicks lie. The facts are these: If you read even a wee bit critically, Tonelico does not dispute the decision to boot him from the guild! He was stung, but he gets that an occasional, multi-hundred-hour commitment isn’t enough for you people, and that he should join a social LS instead.

It was the imperious way you guys handled the whole thing that inspired the rant, right? Isn’t that obvious?

When he posted this thing, I was mostly sympathetic. But it wasn’t until the power brokers came in here, feigning hurt and hilariously over-written outrage, that I was totally convinced. You people are monsters, and you make the Internet worse.

Let’s all go enjoy our games, k?

The bottom line, Mr. Lico, is that you were expendable.

‘Why is this?’ You might ask. Lets bring a couple points to prove the theory:
a)The fact that you magically appear every 6 months to a year and ask for help in getting something achieved for yourself, achieve it, and disappear again.
b)Appear instantly ‘afk’ when it is time to gather for a linkshell event.

How you are still bothered by your removal of this linkshell is beyond my recognition. If you forgot about the overall premise of the linkshell, the so-called ‘mission statement’, let me refresh your memory:

“BotD was established so that friends and players with common interests would have a place to call home. As a family, we strive for excellence in the areas of Sky, Sea, Cop missions, Zilart missions and any other missions coming from the Final Fantasy Database.”

Now, most of the people that have already posted here will immediately dispute the ‘family’ aspect, I understand this. I implore anyone here to give me a full-fledged example of a family that is free from the grip of dysfunction.

The bottom line reason for your removal should be crystal clear to you Mr. Lico.
You were only in Bringer of the Dawn to benefit yourself. BoTD reserves the right to remove selfish people like you.

“One thing that cannot and will not be tolerated is for people that come only to sky/sea raids and kirin runs and never show up in the LS for anything else. If you come for an item you want and then never show up again until you need another item, you will be dismissed from our services.”

This applies to missions/quests. It is give and take when it comes to working with others to attain a goal. To dumb it down for you – we scratch your back, you scratch ours. In the end, you proved yourself to be the only one being ‘scratched’, and it was decided that you were not worthy of being in the linkshell if you weren’t going participate in mandatory events.

Hopefully this shed some light on the drama-nuke you placed on the internet. Perhaps if you were a little more considerate of others in-game it would have warranted a different outcome, and this wall of text looking for sympathy would never have come to fruition.

Source: http://botdls.com/GeneralInformation.cfm

But really, where is this talk coming from? If I’ve been in so many shells and jumped ship on so many, what were they? Since 05 I’ve been in BotD, Empire (and the like remakes there after), WhiteWidow, and my current Relics. BotD was the only one I “jumped ship” on. Empire and WhiteWidow split on their own difference but none influenced by me.

Everyone’s behavior is at fault at their respective times. We all have our reasons or sometimes people just plain don’t understand 1/2 the time. I’m not sitting here typing acting like I’m the best shit in the world, not asking for awards or gold stars for calling people out or defending myself. Only stating what I knew from a time once was.

People are so quick to judge, so hasty, with out stopping to think of the other people’s intentions. Sure, you perceive that I was being a bitch. But really, when the times mattered, when did I not have good intentions when a friend needed it? I’m not that bad of a person when you treat me fairly like a human being. After a point, people just threw that out the window. So yeah, during my time in botd, I was walked over, laughed about, talked shit about, used, misunderstood, and I got sick of it. Why should I give you respect and treat you any better when you won’t do the same in return?

If I even decided to stay in botd instead of leaving for Empire, I would have been kicked during one of Anto’s rage fits or I’d just be plain out miserable. The shell was a good start for me, but I’ve since moved to better things with groups of people who see past me as just some other bitch gamer chick on ffxi.

A lot of us have had our fair share of trashing each other, trashing botd, being butt hurt over being kicked or a friend being kicked, ranting, what have you. Til FFXI dies, that won’t stop happening. It’s human nature. Everyone has to walk out feeling like the got in the last word.

Glad to know Neph, the really all this time, you weren’t really a friend at all. When did I ever do you wrong?

1. Confused BotD member is not me. I always post my name ..if I ever bother posting at all. So guess again.
2. I wasn’t aware I had a grudge against anyone. Frankly I always thought we got along fine. Which is confusing… lol.
3. I was a sack long before you had ever even heard of BotD, and I asked Anto to remove my leader status because I could not contribute as much as I had in the past. You are correct I haven’t been active in quite some time due to financial issues I had to go through in the past few years. I’m not 20 something living at home with Mom and Dad. Basically had to start over from scratch @ 33. So I had crap to deal with; Such is life.
My original character was Jarko and you can ask any of the founding members what my level of contribution was when I was able to play on a regular basis.
4. Me removing Shadow doesn’t concern you. I did not do so on a whim as you seem to think. If I had I would have been gone, and Shadow would have been reinstated. Period. It was above your pay grade, and that’s about all you will know.
5. I may not be anywhere near as active as I was in the past but I still contribute where I can. Currently I work 2 fulltime jobs and yet I still keep my account active because this is not just some end game shell to me, this is my home, these are my friends. People I’ve known for 8 years, and some for years before ffxi was even released. People who have stuck by me through the good and the bad and the LOL’s. Together we’ve enjoyed a lot of success, and it’s been fun. This is my family; BotD is my home.

6. I don’t much care to respond to posts like Toni’s as general rule. Personally I find them to read like something written by a disgruntled employee. These people carry their problems with them wherever they go like a security blanket. If you really are done with something then move on. Focus on the positive and enjoy the game. Or if you prefer being miserable then carry on.

I won’t be posting here again. ..Just not my thing. Best of luck.

I’ve always had respect for you, Tone, and considered you as a close friend on FFXI. This doesn’t at all sound like the Tone I know. You used to bash people for the same stuff you did in LS and for what? To get punished because you did the same thing? I do hope this is a troll post. Btw I semi-quit so hope to see the real Tone in game someday.

Dray: Fuck you. I miss you =(

Leik: LoL Because the LS points page is littered with CoP mission completes dating as far back as 2006. Nice try dude. I still love your ass though.

Nats: Honestly I stayed friends with you because I saw the same “Go nowhere” from BotD which prompted my leaving for Empire (which I had TONS of fun). But you like most people, you’ve jumped ship to so many shells and tossed so many because you felt you were mistreated, you probably don’t even know who your friends are or what they’re about (lol to you for bringing up drama you can’t get away from). That’s why I rejoined BotD. I never said Anto wasn’t a good leader or BotD wasn’t a good shell; they are! I just wanted a change so I did and got my taste and wanted to go back to where my FRIENDS were. After changing shells for the umpteenth time, did you ever make friends that stuck with you from shell to shell so you could play with them? Ever reflect on yourself sometimes to see how your behavior affects those around you?

Fail blog is fail.