One Flew Over The Dactyl’s Nest

Apr 15

“Listen: Billy Pilgrim has come unstuck in time.”


- Slaughterhouse-Five, by Kurt Vonnegut

Have you ever “lost it?” Just totally, absolutely disassociated you from your self? I have. A couple times. For some people, given the right circumstances, “losing it” can be a good, freeing experience. But for me, this last time around, it was downright terrifying. And it made life hard for my family and friends.

I won’t give the gritty details, but I think you can get the picture by listening to this episode of Radiolab. It’s buried in one of the shorter segments. But that whole episode is great. In fact, start listening to Radiolab. And This American Life. (And The Jurassic Hour.)

What does any of this have to do with the Gameodactyl writing for Gameosaurus? Well, after I lost it, I spent some time prioritizing the activities in my life in an attempt to reduce the levels of stress I put on myself. For a solid decade, I’d been writing for RPGFan. For the last three years, I’d also covered game music and chiptunes for Original Sound Version. I don’t write for either site anymore.

It’s not that I disliked writing for them. It was a lot of fun, and I have hundreds of positive experiences and memories thanks to the opportunities with those fantastic outlets. However, the trade-off there was that there were deadlines. Big deadlines for big games and soundtracks. The need to continually bring content. The feeling that, if I didn’t contribute, it would damage those sites’ credibility. With the fun came a lot of stress, and I had to cut it. While I was at it, I stopped playing the MMORPG Final Fantasy XI; for, as fun as it was, it too came with its fair share of stress. Fear not, for Tonelico is still alive! A friend who goes by the moniker “Faithful” took over the character, alongside the financial responsibility to keep the account active.

Why am I telling you this? Perhaps you’re thinking I’m about to retire from Gameosaurus. Well… nope. You see, despite earlier intentions to make this a legitimate online outlet, Pete (Rex) and I have decided to let this beautiful little site regress into pure “blog” territory. No more advanced copies, no more review deadlines, no schedule to podcasting. Just, post as you have reason to.

So, my goal is to allow this place to be a place to do therapeutic writing about my favorite hobby: gaming. No longer will gaming be a chore. No longer will I stress about getting a game done and a written piece alongside it as early as I can to the “embargo date.” And what’s this mean?

It means the Dactyl is “finding it” again. And this tiny blog is part of it. If you want to follow along, I’d encourage you to do so. But if the only person reading is me? That’s okay too.

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